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[Mar. 2nd, 2010|11:30 am] |
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one year ago, i never thought we would get together. even the thought of talking to you never crossed my mind. but it happened.
i would like to sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart for this past year. we had one hell of a roller coaster ride within this 1 year. it was a journey that took a toll on us, leaving us very very tired (only both of us know). but that aside, you make me the happiest. you know how to bring out fun and laughter even through our most simplest dates. i love how we both can make something out of notthing. i love how you are able to tolerate my nonsense (like getting hungry so often, wanting this and that). i love how you manage to surprise me on my birthday. i know you're not this type of guy but for you to do that just because you wanna make me happiest on that very day, you are amazing. i am thankful for you love, i really am. you had my back when everything else started falling apart and you hold me together with comforting words and a hug telling me that everything will be okay. through you, i learnt alot. you open my eyes to my surroundings (pulling me away from being labelled bimbo). you encourage and have faith in me when i totally lost it sometimes. you're special love, very very special. even when i pushed you away, you still stay by my side even through the times when we both just cannot take it. i guess after one year, we grow to be a part of each other and it's comforting to know you're the first thing in my mind when i wake up. i love how you act around me, just being you and not hide the sides where u know i might get turned off by. i love how you are willing to go through those intense talks because you want the best for me. thank you for trying to understand me all these while but most importantly, thank you for still staying, still sticking around even though u know you can walk away. thank you so so much for staying by my side syaf.
i love you, forever and always.
 HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNI LOVE <3
je'taime muhammad syafi'ie.
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[Jan. 15th, 2010|02:24 pm] |
change is good. you may not want change but you need to embrace changes in your life to make you a better person.
i know i am on the way to change a few things about myself. for a year i've tolerated so much even having some stepping over the line just because i believe im easy to push around. but im sorry, you'll never get this again because i HAVE HAD ENOUGH.
you know sometimes you press a person too much they'll break, that is what's happening to me. i care but someone opened my eyes to take a look at the bigger picture. the person made me realise that i dont get what i give. thou it's genuine from my part, i expect a little from the other party too. but i dont get any. maybe im too sensitive but im not the only one who notices this. i hate this alot, even cried my nights away because of this. but what do i get? i get nothing.
it's time for me to stop crying and get my act together. im stronger than this, i know i am. just 1 month to go qin, you can do it!
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[Jan. 8th, 2010|12:28 am] |
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agreeing to something just for the sake of change is tough. i dont like it but who am i to say anything right. i cant and it hurts. but then again, who even bothers. this suck. contemplating on something that i love very much is tough. i dont like this, but what choice do i have. 50 50 now
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| Twenty Ten |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|02:14 pm] |
it's been 3 days since the NEW YEAR and personally, i didnt feel it coming at all. it was ordinary just like any other day. i wont recap my 2009 netiher will i pen down my expectations for 2010. just one word to describe 2010 so far; complicated.
in any case, i think i'll be okay. reality havent sink it fully yet, wait till it has and then we all can see what will happen.
the family has already packed most of our stuffs and this reality has finally get a hold on me. i finally realised we're moving and it's kinda sad. i've lived here for 13 years alr and to think of moving is saddening. but maybe that's what i need; a new place and a new lease of life.
to amy, if you read this please talk to me kay? i really need you right now. |
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[Dec. 25th, 2009|03:23 pm] |
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MERRY CHRISTMAS!
cant wait to receive my presents tmr (although i know what most of it are already) but in any case, opening presents are the best! :))))
anyway, the holidays are ending. which spells out MISERY! okay bye. |
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| Syaf turns NINETEEN! |
[Dec. 21st, 2009|11:00 pm] |
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we've been through a roller coaster mess this past few months. we're still learning, still trying to make this work. but as long as you dont give up, i promise you i wont too. i will try as much as you do maybe more to make this work. But you've been the best thus far love cause you have ALWAYS been there. Never giving up on me when i know you can and you've done so many things to make me happy. you keep me going when i see no hope. i love how we can be friends one minute and lover the next. i love how i can be myself ard you. you're a part of me babe and for all of that i can never ever thank you enough. im sorry today didnt work out as what i planned because of unforseen circumstances. i'll make it up to u, i promise.
I LOVE YOU SYAF
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!
ps: for the record, i am 3 months OLDER than you. thanks! lol |
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